Listening to Selena "Dreaming of you"

just got back from Zimbabwe and while there i did alot of thinking... well first of all Cho Cho wrote me and told me about how he feels he is doing better... i feel happy for him... but i have to see it to believe it... he probably is doing good but i dont know if he stopped doing 'naughtiness'...

I dont know we have been through a lot... a little too much and i dont know if I can go back there again... at least not at this time... who knows what the future holds...

Then i started to think about how I had the perfect 'date' with a guy I wasnt even going out with,who has a girlfriend... I use the word date because i believe what we did that day is what i consider a perfect date... we were actually just chilling as friends but if i were to get a boyfriend and we did what we did that day i would have considered it the perfect date... well first I got picked up at my hotel and then we went to Canoeing at the Sydney Harbour... and then we Canoed to a little private beach and chilled in the crystal clear water and just talked and then he drove me to get fish and chips from his favorite fish and chips shop... it was gourmet... and then we walked to bondi beach and sat and watched the waves, talked and threw fish at the birds and had a laugh... and then we went and got ice cream and talked while walking back to the car... we had a great laugh... especially about how i had refused to open the bin while throwing our fish and chips rubbish because chances are I would forget and then put a finger filled with nasty bin bacteria in my mouth and he said whatever and opened the bin... and then when we were eating, ice cream dripped on his fingers and went on his hands and he licked them and then he realized that i was right and we both laughed... the bubble gum ice cream was pretty yummy... anyways he then dropped me at my hotel and I said good bye... anyways the point is that of all dates I have gone on, that was one of the best... and it wasnt even a date... hahaha... It was just so laid back, the conversation was good and we just chilled and relaxed, no rush, no cell phones, no stress, all in good fun.

Why are all the good men taken? hahaha...

And then i had a bit of a spat with my mother... she was nagging at me and saying that i should be thinking of journalism stuff during my holidays and blah blah blah... i dont know i think she was just having PMS and was snappy... i am a very energetic person coz i got ADD and she was criticizing me and telling me that when there are guests i should calm down and sit down and be like a zombie and thats not me... i am filled with life and energy and i felt like she was attacking whom i was...

Then the wedding was a disaster...we arrived when the wedding was over and people were getting ready to leave and were packing up... woops... kinda embarrasing but i dont really care because the family members are rude towards my dad and mom and dont understand why we have to be extremely happy with them when we are around them...

I am glad my dad was contemplating not going to the wedding because he is fed up of trying with his brothers and sisters and their kids but my mom wouldnt hear it... i think its good my dad doesnt care anymore because he has done his best and they are jealous of him and there is nothing we can do about that... how can you be jealous of your own brother?

Only 1.5 months left till i have University again and then soon after i am graduating... i have sooooo much to thing about!

End Song: Omarion "Ice Box"